To put it all in one word....DEPRESSED!  I took a pregnancy test yesterday and a couple of days before that and they both were negative!! I woke up 4am this morg thinking about how much I want another child(ren). I wanted my daughter and our next son or daughter to be closer in age; 2-3 yrs. My step son is 8 and my daughter will be 4 soon and they don't play together very much. She loves her Max and Ruby, Wonderpets and Shaun the Sheep. He loves any super hero movie, transformers ect. She always try to get him to play pretend with her bears but he does not like it.. I really wish they played more together but because of their age difference they are into different things. So I really wanted my next child to be closer in age with my daughter...Well now i know thats not going to happen :(  My cycles are irregular. In my last post I was stated i was spotting. i was hoping it was implantation it turned out to be AF which stuck around for 2 weeks! I never experienced that before at least not that I can remember. well thts it for now ttys

whats going on?

Sigh..I took a pregnancy test yesterday and of course it was negative.... I gave in to temptation after watching numerous of pregnancy videos on YouTube yesterday. My temps have been so wacky! My temp will dip ..then I begin to think I'm about to ovulate, it spikes.. (at this point im jumping around so happy because i think i ovulated) then my temp dips and spikes again!! Yep it does the exact same thing about 4 times. So as you may know I'm really feeling down. I have been spotting for the last 5 days. According to fertility friend i will ovukate around the 25th and today is the 13th. I'm only using a BBT because I ran out of ovulation test about two weeks ago. I decided that if I don't get my BFP I'm  investing in a Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor so I'm not purchasing any more opk's. I really want an ovacue but its really expensive! $400.00!! The clearblue monitor is around 200.00 I know I'll end up spending more buying the stick but one box which is around 30.00 will last 3 months. Well hopefully my next post I'll be writing about my BFP! Now back to homeschooling I go ;) ttys

Ovulating already?

Something weird happened a couple of days ago. One day after my cycle ends I got a positive ovulation test. I took another one later on that day and it was negative. I began to think it was just a fluke because I bought the cheap ovulation test ($13.00) instead of the usual that cost $24.00.  But then I began to think I was drinking lots of liquid; which could also be the reason it was negative. The next day I took another one and it was really close to being positive. I could see a slight difference in the shade (oh, how TTC can be so complicated lol) so I took another one later on and the line was lighter than the previous test. I could tell it was definitely negative. So I'm thinking hmmm.. did I ovulate early? My husband and I "bd" twice on that day so hopefully some of his tadpoles made their way to the egg...I know, I know too much info!! Sorry!! I'm getting way ahead of myself here..I'm trying to be calm and just go with the flow this month. I had a couple of hissy fits lasts month. I told my husband I wanted to try something new this month. I want to "bd"           every other day and once I get a positive opk every day until my tempeture shifts( spikes) and I get my cross hairs on fertility friend. I apologize if you're not familiar with these terms and it sound like mumbo jumbo..sigh.. anywhoo previously I stated I bought preseed to try out. I decided to return it after looking at the ingredients. Its LOADED with toxic chemicals; parabens which is known to cause cancer among other health issues.  I emailed them to let them know my concerns. They quickly replied saying they assure me its for TTC couples and I can get a full refund. I don't know what they meant by its for ttc . We are TTC and I don't want to put something harmful in my body. I'll try more natural approach to get fertile CM. Anywhoo this is turning into a rant ttys..ciao..

I knew i would get my BFP, i truly felt in my heart then AF came

The title of this post pretty much says it all. T might sound as though I am upset, I'm not. I'm a little bummed but that's it.. To be honest I found happiness in this situation, even though I got NUMEROUS of bfn this month. I kept testing every 2-3 days by CD 13 I began to realize this may not be our month. My temperature dipped on CD 14 and I began spotting. The next morning I saw that AF dropped by :( As I said before I found happiness. Yes I bummed about not being pregnant but I was happy that my cycle seemed normal for once in my life. I can't say if its the prenatal vitamins but I have never had an normal cycle. In other news I decided to buy preseed and I also purchased more ovulation tests and pregnancy test. I think 50 ovulation test and 10 pregnancy test for 14.00 on amazon and the preseed was purchased from earlypregnancytests.com. I could have gotten that from Amazon as well but considering that is something that's going in my "woo hoo" lol I'll rather get it straight from the reputable website.. you know what I mean?! Anywhoo ttys and baby dust to all those TTC :)

Ovulating twice in one cycle?!

Something strange is happening; I got a positive ovulation test on the 17th and 18th and a negative on the 19th and 20th but another positive on the 21st and 22nd. On the 20th my temperature dipped to 97.44 and spiked to 97.88 on the 21st . This is the second time this cycle my temperature dipped and spiked. I'm not sure if I ovulated around my first spiked or the second time my temperature dipped and spiked. I'm so confused! I'm hoping that the reason I'm getting positive opks is because I'm pregnant.  The ovulation LH and the pregnancy hormone HCG are identical therefore when a opk is dipped in the urine it will detect the hcg hormone as well as the LH making the test line appear darker. I took 3 pregnancy test already and each one revealed that I wasn't pregnant. I'm still very hopeful though. I pray this is our month. I will take another test around the 27th; I would be around 10 dpo by then.  Anywhoo that's what's going on in my neck of the woods :) ttys

Grey

I have been thinking about baby names lately and I have officially fell in love with the name Grey. I am also fond of Asia too but I'm really loving Grey for my future daughters name. I haven't put much thought into boys name but I do like the name Elijah or Eli. My husband thinks it's only fair he name our next baby since I named our first two daughters. Guess what name he suggested! Go ahead, guess! Seven. Yep, you're reading that right don't go find your glasses or put on your contacts :) Seven,  S-E-V-E-N.. and guess what else! I kinda like it too!

Call me crazy!!

It's happening again! I am getting that feeling and I'm claiming it! I don't know if you're familiar with saying. My sister says it a lot. When she is looking for a job instead of saying I hope I find a job she would claim it by saying I WILL find a job. So I am claiming my blessing today I will be pregnant by March 30th 2013. I have a feeling I will be pregnant before that date. I don't really have any signs or symptoms..just my faith which is more than enough. I told  my husband I want to be pregnant by that date and he doesn't think its a good idea to put a date on it. I know he is trying to protect me from getting hurt in case I don't conceive by then. I bought some opks from early pregnancy test.com through Amazon website. It was cheaper; I purchased 40 opks and 10 pregnancy tests for 24.00 free S&H. On earlypregnancytests.com it was 24.00 for 25 opks, so I got a good deal! The only downside to that deal is its taking an extra 5 days to receive my package. I think I already missed my ovulation because my temp dropped to 96.80. I'll see if it spikes tomorrow!! Fingers crossed

TTYS

It's 6 am

It's 6:00 am and I find myself on early-pregnancy-tests.com looking at pre-seed, fertility monitors ect..sigh.. I am so anxious to see that BFP especially after I just found out my sister is 8 weeks pregnant. I miscarried Dec. 5th and I found out she was pregnant Dec 10th. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before but when she was 15 she and I were pregnant at the same time. I went into preterm labor and gave birth November 18, 2007 she gave birth to her son November 29,2007. I cannot tell you how awful I felt. I was happy she gave birth to a healthy baby boy but I was severely depressed for months. So this situation seem all too familiar minus the depression. There are days when I feel down but I quickly pick myself up. Honestly, I don't have time to be depressed. I have a house hold to run, clothes to wash, food to cook, laundry to fold. You get my dreft, oh I mean drift. :) My husband is a great listener and he feels everything will happen when God wants it to. So until then I guess I will be charting, taking opk's and my prenatal vitamins. Oh, speaking of vitamins i went to my local health food store and bought New Chapter Perfect Prenatal. The prenatals were 25.00 for 48 pills; which you're suppose to take 3x a day. Kinda pricey, I know! But they are Organic and whole food based so I thought I would give them a try. I take 2 instead of 3 a day, one in the morning and one at night. I plan on getting some opk's, but I really want a fertility monitor.preferably an ovacue but I will settle for a clearblue fertility monitor. My husband don't think we need it. I will remember that the next time we're at Hastings and he is trying to buy a Madden Football Game (lol) Until next time ttys :)